Some Anniversary...

How does a person deal with an abortion "anniversary"?  It has been 9 years since that horrible experience.  Obviously I knew it was coming and was a little worried about how I would feel.  Well I was so busy with everything else going on that it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.  But I definitely got really sad at midnight that day.  I cried and cried.  My hunny held me =).  It was also his birthday.  So as I wished him a Happy Birthday with a hug and a kiss I also had to hide the tears and hold them back, that is until I couldn't any longer and let the tears come.  I was just sad about the day in general.  Nothing specific was making me sad.  Its just that the months leading up to yesterday have been emotional and confusing, as well as empowering and a great learning experience.  I have come so far since September 25th, 2002.  Well now I can breathe for a few months until May 2012 when the process starts all over again...

Me Lately

It definitely got a little hectic here these past few weeks.  I enrolled in this awesome online nutrition program that started today as a matter of fact, as well as decided to move out of my mothers house and into my grandmothers house by the end of this month, my 9 year abortion anniversary is approaching as well as my hunny's birthday.  This is all happening all in the same month!  It's too much!  I love my hunny and am so happy to celebrate his birthdays with him, because he is the best thing that ever happened to me and I definitely want to show him that this year.  The fact that all this other stuff is happening right along with it is tough.  How will I balance it all and still have time for some fun stuff?  I know I know, just take one thing at a time.  But my brain doesn't work like that.  Its everything all at once!  I dropped out of the post abortion recovery group that was online, mainly because I knew I was going to be able to give it my all and I deserve to get the most out of the process.  So I will do some journaling on my own with some guidance.  Yoga is great I just wish I could get there more often.  I hate my job of course, but hopefully won't have to deal with it for too much longer.  My mother is driving me up a wall.  Im overwhelmed!  Better rest my eyes, long and busy day tomorrow... I better meditate as well!