Due this month.

Now, I can't really remember what my due date was supposed to be, but I know it was February.  So - this is when it kind of starts; the anniversaries, the memories... Its like a preview really, to what is about to come in May/June.  10 Years of this.  "Anniversaries".  Maybe now I can call them "Passiversaries"?  I don't know, I'll have to ask the girls on the forum about it, but its tough.  I have so much on my mind!  A new job, a new career developing, living way up in the sticks and now this 10 year milestone anniversary of the loss of my baby, and so much more...  I heard a song a little while ago called "Farewell" by Rose ... i forgot her last name, and I had a sick, sad and desperate feeling in my stomach, and started to think about my little one that I miss so much.  I think about her daily.  I think its time to make a visit to the church and say a little prayer, reach out to the spirit of Vita.  Hold onto the experience for a little while in a place where I know I am understood and accepted. Wow.  10 years already...